I’ve changed! I’m not just talking about my new short black hair either. Or this blog although that change is where I will start with because it’s an interesting story.
I was trying to add some new speaking engagements to this blog when I pushed something and all the sudden everything started updating and it all changed. I mean the whole look. It became dark and bold and very different looking and I hated it at first and wanted desperately to get back to the old and familiar. But no matter how much I yelled at my computer or tried to undo what I wasn’t sure I had done, it would not go back. So there I was… left with what I thought was a mess, when my husband came home and looked over my shoulder and before I could burden him with all my computer technology woes he said, “Wow, I like the new look!” I just looked at him, then back at the screen, then at him again. He continued, “It matches the new you!” then he kissed the top of my head and left me with my mouth wide open not sure what to say or even think.
I stared at the screen for a long time, turned it off walked around, then back on again to see it with fresh eyes. I didn’t hate it as much, but I wasn’t loving it either. I started to play around a bit, adding widgets and plugins and tweaking this and that and suddenly some o the old elements popped back up. But some how they looked more fresh, new, more alive on the darker bolder background. Then all the sudden I was reminded of something someone said to me the other day. I was interviewing this woman for a magazine article I was asked to write and she told me a favorite quotes, “Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better with change!” She then went on to explain to me that change is inevitable, whether we like it or not… it’s going to happen. But progress that can come from that change, that is optional and a choice we can make. Or not make as the case sometimes is.
So with that I decided to embrace the new look as something that was meant to be, an inevitable change for the better I hope. Just like all the other things that have been happening in my life. Just like my Gracie girl graduating from elementary school in a few weeks and entering middle school, and Jay growing and coming into his own, and me dying my hair black and cutting it short.
As special need parents I think it is easy to fear change. Change is scary for our kids and well, scary for us. We cannot control what we don’t know, but if you change nothing…nothing will change and well that’s not good. If we want our kids to grow to try new things to learn and live and thrive, well then they need to see us doing it too.
So with that, I changed my hair style and color, and I now I changed this blog and well I made the decision to progress. And now that I have finally embraced that decision you know what… I’m kind of excited to see what happens next. Change doesn’t have to be bad. I mean just when the caterpillar thought his world was over… POOF he became a butterfly! I am ready to spread my wings, what about you?