He is off today. I am not sure if it is because of the meltdown he had earlier over french toast or if it is because this is the last lesson. He knows summer is coming to an end. My boy doesn’t do well with endings. He just doesn’t know how to express his sadness in an appropriate way.
I have to laugh. The instructor has asked Jay to swim the length of the pool, again, and his response was, “Seriously? I’m tired. I’m not as young as I used to be you know.”
Back to the whole end of summer thing. The fact of the matter is that for once I truly understand how Jay is feeling. I feel the same way. Don’t get me wrong, I am EXCITED about the kids going back to school. I look forward to the quiet and to regaining my sanity as well as my schedule. But at the same time… well I will miss them. I will miss the lazy mornings of snuggling in bed together. The slower pace. The days by the pool.
A new school year means another year older. My baby girl is going into 3rd grade! And Jay is going into 5th. Next year he will be going into Middle School. I don’t think I am ready to have a middle school kid.
Maybe I am just hormonal. More likely it is because my birthday is next week. Birthdays have a way of making you stop and reflect. They make you think about all you have accomplished, or maybe not accomplished. They make you re-evaluate your goals , your priorities.
As I stopped to think about what I just wrote I notice Jay diving for a ring. He slaps at the water and kicks to try to go deeper. He pops back up coughing spitting up the excess water he has taken in. How easy it would be for him to just give up…but he doesn’t. He does this same slapping, kicking, coughing, spitting routine over and over until he finally retrieves the ring.
Jay: “Mom I did it! Did you see me? I did it. Are you proud of me?”
Me: ” Yes baby I saw. Good job! I’m so proud of you!”
Jay: “Can we make cookies to celebrate?”
Once again my boy has helped me to put things back into perspective.
My Birthday is next week and I reflect.
My accomplishments… my children!
My goals… to enjoy the good moments and to get through the bad ones with perhaps a little bit of grace.
My priorities… well right now they are to go home and make celebration cookies with my kids.
In life you are always going to swallow a little too much water from time to time. The question is are you going to give up and stop or are you going to spit it out and keep on diving for the ring? What’s your choice?
Don’t forget about my two Giveaways! Surviving Time Island ends tomorrow at Midnight and the Special Agent Society Computer Social Skills Program ends August 31st.