Call me crazy, compulsive, neurotic or whatever you want, but my to do list makes me happy. I know this now because for a week I intentionally took it away and well… I was lost, miserable, emotional, unfocused and just not pleasant to be around. It was the longest week of my life.
Last week I decided to not do a list, to not set up a schedule for myself and to well just see what happens. I intentionally did not file papers and bills, if the kids left something on the dinning room table it stayed there and lets not even talk about the pile of shoes remaining by the front door. My thinking was that my need for organization and having everything in its place was all about control. Since I am trying to fight that demon… it made sense at the time that this could be a simple start. But guess what… WRONG! My entire week was off. I did not exercise, I did not blog regularly, I was lost in a sense.
What I learned is that my physical surroundings DO influence my spiritual happiness. Clutter literally clutters my mind. It makes me edgy, tense and well… not happy. I realized that I clean, I organize and I make my To DO List not because I have to… but because I want to. It makes me feel better. My To DO List reduces my stress. It helps me prioritize what it is important. It reminds me what has to be done and lets face it… I can use as many reminders as possible. And most importantly my To Do List empowers me. YES you read correctly… empowers me. I get giddy at the thought of being able to check or cross something off my list. I admit I will sometimes even but things I have already done or that are gimmies like eat lunch, just so I can have that thrill of being able to check it off. I know… crazy, but that is me.
So to all my family members and friends who have and will always I am sure make fun of my To DO List… I say… Go ahead and Mock me, I don’t care, it makes me happy and that is all that matters.
Wow I can now cross off “Do a Post for Blog” and “Do something that makes me happy” off my list! A two for one deal… I feel tingly all over!